leave a light on

In the darkness my mind is filled;

the mass concept of this loneliness

weighing down upon my head,

taking the air from my chest...

my throat trying to hold what remains.

bowing to concepts of fear and doubt,

my face turned toward my hands...

I ponder worth.

struggles left unfinished,

my eyes search for solutions

to problems I cannot attain to.

like reaching out for a hand,

that wasnt offered to begin with...

And I want only to be held...

To rest in the safety and assurance

of a formidable love...

of a love that my eyes can look upwards

to see, 

and my hands can hold onto. 

Ive filled these pages with desperations,

with quiet mourning,

and the echoing of my souls artistry.

Ive analyzed the emotions at play,

spell checked the interpersonal 

and faulted those responsible with history

for the consequences...I live with.

But all I want is to be loved...

to find the center of this storm.... 

in the darkness....