Siren Songs

"This is morning
That's when I spend the most time
"Thinking 'bout what I've given up
This is a warning
When you start the day just to close the curtains
You're thinking 'bout what I've given up

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

I read your letter
The one you left when you broke into my house
Retracing every step you made
And you said you meant it
And there's a piece of me in every single
Second of every single day
But if it's true then tell me how it got this way

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

And I can't get to you
I can't get to you
I can't get to you (you, you)

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I conduct a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I'm cutting through you track by track
I swear to God this mix could sink the sun
But it was you I was thinking of

And this is my mixed tape for her
It's like I wrote every note
With my own fingers"

Mixed Tape by Jack's Mannequin
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"There's no eye in the sky
Just our love
No unobstructed view
No perfect truths
Just our love
Just our love
And there's no verse
No monument of words
For our love
For they can't hold
All I know
About my love, about my love."

Unobstructed View by DCFC
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"Breathe and I'll carry you away into the velvet sky
And we'll stir the stars around and watch them fall away
Into the Hudson Bay and plummet out of sight and sound
The open summer breeze will sweep you through the hills
Where I live in the Alpine heights
Below the northern lights I spend my coldest nights alone awake
And thinking of the weekend we were in love
(The weekend we were in love)

Home among these mountain tops can be so awfully dull
A thousand miles from the tide
Put photos on the walls of New York shopping malls
Distract me so I stay inside
I wish the rocket stayed over the promenade 'cuz I would make a hook
And I fish them from the sky
My darling she and I were hanging on so take us high
To sing the world goodbye

I am floating away lost in a silent ballet
I'm dreaming you're out in the blue and I am right beside you

Awake to take in the view
Late nights and early parades
Still photos and noisy arcades
My darling we're both on the wing
Look down and keep on singing and we can go anywhere

Are you there
Or are you just a decoy dream in my head
Am I home or am I simply tumbling out alone.

On the Wing by Owl City
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"Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That your're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry

So just say how to make it right
And i swear i'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together."

Nothing Better by Postal Service
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"Steal my heart and hold my tongue.
I feel my time, my time has come.
Let me in, unlock the door.
I've never felt this way before.

The wheels just keep on turning,
The drummer begins to drum,
I don't know which way I'm going,
I don't know which way I've come.

Hold my head inside your hands,
I need someone who understands.
I need someone, someone who hears,
For you, I've waited all these years.

For you, I'd wait 'til kingdom come.
Until my day, my day is done.
And say you'll come, and set me free,
Just say you'll wait, you'll wait for me."

Kingdom Come by Coldplay
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"Knights in white satin, never reaching the end,
Letters I've written, never meaning to send.
Beauty I'd always missed with these eyes before.
Just what the truth is, I can't say anymore.

'Cos I love you, yes I love you, oh how I love you.

Gazing at people, some hand in hand,
Just what I'm going through they can't understand.
Some try to tell me, thoughts they cannot defend,
Just what you want to be, you will be in the end.

And I love you, yes I love you,
Oh how I love you, oh how I love you.

Nights in white satin, never reaching the end,
Letters I've written, never meaning to send.
Beauty I've always missed, with these eyes before.
Just what the truth is, I can't say anymore.

'Cos I love you, yes I love you,
Oh how I love you, oh how I love you."

Knights in White Satin by Moody Blues
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"Dear ...., I've got a letter I would like to send.
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the ends.

But should I trust this dialect,
To convey the right effect?

Dear ...., I've got some things I'd like to set in pen.
I would have used a pencil but leads just not permanent.

I'll give you all I can, A flower and a hand.
I hope this helps you see.
Signed,
sincerely me."

Dear Jamie...Sincerely Me by Hellogoodbye
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"And I have to speculate that God himself
Did make us into corresponding shapes like
Puzzle pieces from the clay
True, it may seem like a stretch, but
Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled
Head when you're away when I am missing you to death.

They won't see us waving from such great heights,
"Come down now", they'll say
But everything looks perfect from far away
"Come down now", but we'll stay..."

Such Great Heights by Postal Service
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"You keep trying to get inside my head
While I keep trying to lose the words you said
Can't you see I'm hanging by a thread
To my life, what I know
Yeah, I'm losing control and

Oh, no
My walls are gonna break
So close
It's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't safe
You're not safe

It's not always happy endings
But it's all the in-between
It's taken so long, so long to finally see
That your love is worth the risk."

Safe by Britt Nicole
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"We built a tall, tall tower
Towards the sun, towards the sun
Took some words and built a wall
And called it love, called it love

And somewhere in all the talking
The meaning faded out

Oh, I wonder
When did it all stop making sense?
I don't understand
I remember we were so sure, so innocent
Oh, but that was then
Can we ever go back again?
Can we ever go back?"

Speaking a Dead Language by Joy Williams
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"So Pretty, So Smart
Such A Waste Of A Young Heart
Whatta Pitty Whatta Sham
What's The Matter With You Man?

Don't You See What's Wrong
Can't You Get It Right?
Outa Mind, And Outa Sight
Call On All Your Girls,
Don't Forget The Boys,
Put a Lid On All That Noise.

Im, A Satellite Heart
Lost In The Dark.
Im Spun Out So Far,
You Stop I Start,
But I'll Be True To You

I Hear Your Living Out Of State
Runnin In A Whole New Scene.
You Know I Haven't Slept In Weeks,
You're The Only Thing I See

Im, A Satellite Heart
Lost In The Dark.
Im Spun Out So Far,
You Stop I Start,
But I'll Be True To You
No Matter What You Do,
Yeah I'll Be True To You."

Satellite Heart by Anya Marina
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"I'm all packed up now early in the morning
i'll take my leave
i'll bring your words along with me
maybe one day they will mean something

for now they buzz and crumble down
a little bit too easily
from a time that i am not quite over
what the hell is wrong with me

i might be gone a little while
i guess we'll see
i gotta make a home outta somewhere
and you're all over this city

i'll write you a letter, to say goodbye
and i will make it long and maybe lie just a little
tell you that i'm doing fine
then i'll send it out and let things be
if not for you
for me and for the time i've spent foolishly loving thee

but i should probably say that i'm unsure why i'm running
running away from
the only thing i want
yeah, i should probably say that i'm unsure why i'm running
running away from the one i love."

One I Love by Greg Laswell
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"I’m not gonna fall down today,
Instead I will buckle my knees and sway
Against sweet memories
Against memories

I’ve gotta get outta here today, today
There is too much room in this bed where I lay
The street buzzes for me, below, buzzes for me

And if the breeze blows me down
I’ll take my time to come around,
But I’m not out, oh, I’m not out

Wish I could pull you down today,
From that storm high up that’s taking you away
What would you say to me?
What would you say to me?

And if the breeze blows me down
I’ll take my time to come around,
But I’m not out, oh, I’m not out

And I’m sure that I am tangled up in things you said out loud to me
So recklessly,
And it’s easier to sing the things I wanna say to you,
So I’ll sing, you’re losing me my love,
You’re losing me my love,
Are you losing me my love?."

Not Out by Greg Laswell
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"If I could open my arms
And span the length of the isle of Manhattan,
I'd bring it to where you are
Making a lake of the East River and Hudson
If I could open my mouth
Wide enough for a marching band to march out
They would make your name sing
And bend through alleys and bounce off all the buildings.

I wish we could open our eyes
To see in all directions at the same time
Oh what a beautiful view
If you were never aware of what was around you
And it is true what you said
That I live like a hermit in my own head
But when the sun shines again
I'll pull the curtains and blinds to let the light in.

Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole
Just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound
But while you debate half empty or half full
It slowly rises, your love is gonna drown."

Marching Bands of Manhattan by DCFC
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"I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do."

Run by Snow Patrol
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"The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here."

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City
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I climbed up a mountain, and looked off the edge
At all of the lives that I never have led
There's one where I stayed with you across the sea
I wonder do you still think of me
I carry your image always in my head
Folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
And I've looked upon it for so many years
Slowly I am loosing your face

Oh the ocean rolls us away, away, away
The ocean rolls us away

All of these moments are lost in time
You're caught in my head like a thorn on a vine
To forever torment me and I wonder why
Do I wish I'd never known you at all
Oh the ocean rolls us away away away
And I lose your hand through the waves."

Ocean by Bravery
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"If I had eyes in the back of my head
I would have told you that you looked good as i walked away
And if you could have tried to trust the hand that fed
You would have never been hungry but you'd never really be
More of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we just holding on to things that we don't have anymore

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
It just stands still
While we fall
In or out of love
Again I doubt
I'm going to win you back
When you've got eyes like that
That won't let me in
Always looking out

A lot of people spend their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You've got hungry eyes that just can't look forward
Can't give them enough but we just can't start over
Building with bent nails we're falling but holding
I don't want to take up anymore of your time
Time time time

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
It just stands still
While we fall

In or out of love
Again I doubt
I'm going to win you back
When you've got eyes like that
That won't let me in
Always looking out"

If I Had Eyes by jack Johnson
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Here at last is the conclusion. I write out this last thought because my words can no longer reside in this place. It would be a thinly constructed lie to say that I didnt need this blog, however, Ive never felt right about putting these thoughts out on the internet. The only purpose was to keep a final lifeline open. I hoped that perhaps this would be my way of showing her all the things floating around in my head and heart; the things I just couldn't figure out how to say at the time.

There are so few things in this world that we can be sure of. I was sure of some things and she was sure those things could never happen. Whether it be the decoy dreams, stolen moments, or hopelessly romantic promises: This must end exactly where it began.

So...with a hug and kiss, i bid you the longest goodbye of my life.

12/26/09 - 7/08/11